Sometimes, we just need to obey Him. Who is “Him”? He is the one who made us and also the One who suffered His one and only son, Jesus Christ. God is the “Him” whom I talking about. He is so powerful that all things are possible because of Him. If we have faith in Him and believes in Him, He will help us to get through of all things that are so impossible to be done. He has done a lot for me such as: school, my life and so on. He saved me from everything and He has always been there for me. As my mother and brother always say to me,


Why am I writing this? Because I just want to share what I have experienced from the past. Also, when we obey Him, He will do good things. But, if not, there will always be consequences. Don’t test or try Him, don’t wait for that moment and just obey Him (also TRUST HIM). He knows what is good and right. Just do good things and if temptation comes, just always remember Him and keep His words unto you. He will save you from everything and keep you from evil things.




March 30, 2016

Today, I lost something valuable that I treasure the most. When it comes to gifts from him, I don’t mind how cheap it is, how it looks like, or how ugly it is, as long as it is from him because I know how much efforts that he put into that gift or things he is giving to me. I really like everything  he gives to me but, I lost something from him — his monthsary gift to me.

That monthsary gift he gave to me was a bracelet, which I really liked it. However, I lost it this morning without knowing where. It slipped into my wrist and I only found it out when I was removing my jacket in his school. At first, I was clueless if I really wore it or not and I hoped that I did not. I told him about this and he was sad and told me to check it once I get home… I could not think of anything earlier except the bracelet he gave to me.

As I reached my apartment, I immediately went to my room and checked if I lost it or I did not wear it… I found out that I lost it. You can find this not a big deal, but it IS a big deal for me. I was really sad and I texted him immediately saying sorry.

I should have been more careful and alert of my things. I should have taken care of the things he is giving me because it is from him. Yet, I’m still hoping that I only misplaced it in my apartment that it just fell off from my wrist…

March 29, 2015; 2:30PM

I may not be as sweet as your ex-girlfriend. I may not be as vocalized as your ex-girlfriend. I know you’re not comparing me to your ex, but I could feel it that you haven’t felt this way before you met me. You always thought that I didn’t care for you, that I didn’t love you that much… I don’t know how to express it but I’m doing it the way I know; however, it’s still not enough for you. It’s hard for me. They said keep strong, well I am cause I didn’t want everything to fall apart that easily. We’ve been into this situation for several times. I don’t know anymore what to do. I always acknowledge your efforts, but have you seen mine? I know it seems to be that I’m not showy yet, I’m trying to show my efforts for you. I didn’t blame you for what happened to me between my friends cause I know it’s my fault tho. Maybe I focused too much on you that I didn’t give them time. Yet, you were there when they left me hanging.

Maybe I’m doing it in a wrong way. I pushed you too much to do this, do that. Read this, read that. I’m sorry. If you didn’t want to do it, just tell me. I didn’t want you to just have borrowed faith. Do it your own way, I don’t want to be demanding on you anymore. I don’t want to push you into something that you didn’t want to do. I didn’t want to change you that you didn’t want to be.

I already told you about the relationship that I wanted to have but I chose you. I have no regrets but sometimes I asked myself how and why. I’ve never been into this relationship since you’re my first. I’ve been moody since we’ve been together or maybe after that party. My trust in you was not fully like before. I gave you second chance, then third chance. Maybe love is really blind. I took the risk to be in this relationship because I love you.

I don’t know anymore. Maybe I just have to have more time for myself. Maybe that’s the reason why I want to get out of the city, away from stress, problems or any negative thoughts. You’re not the problem, but I am. You didn’t give me any stress, it’s just my feelings and thoughts. I hope everything’s fine between us.

She & He

She hated him
He loves her
She avoided him
He adores her.

She pushed him away
He stays
She ignored him
He waits.

She likes it
He does not like it
She disagrees
He agrees.

They think opposite attracts
Guess what, it is
She is me
He is him.

Yesterday, someone approached me if I could sing because they said that all Filipinos could, well that’s mostly the passion and talent of a Filipino. Hence, my new found friends asked me to sing, so I sang “Alone” by Celine Dion, the chorus part.They liked my voice and they were amzazed, they forced me to make an audition for the talent show thing. Thus, they accompanied me to Jerm, the guy who held the audition, and made me sang. I was shocked and I don’t know what to sing. But, I sang to them some chorus of “Alone” of Celine Dion and “California King Bed” of Rhianna. I really don’t know what to sing because it was on the spot, really. I was also shy, because it was my first time, no not first time though but maybe I’m not into this anymore.

Singing was my passion, I really liked singing since I knew how to utter a word and rhythm, but why like this? I used to perform in front of the populace. I used to perform in defferent malls, schools and events, but why I suddenly gave up? My last performance was June 2012 in a theater. I texted Maku, my ex-friend, that maybe I should give up after that certain event because I’m really tired of singing in front of people. He asked me not to because he loved me the way I sang (ugh, Ireally can’t remember what he said) but, he cheered me up and continue singing. After that, I really gave up because when I auditioned in our school to become a member of that club, I failed to be part of them. I felt really terrible.

And that, it was when my singing career ended. Now, I was scared to sing again cause I don’t know of my voice again.

Old School

This blog is entitled ‘Old School’ because this blog is all about my ‘future suitors’ if I’m going to have one (seriously please). 

First and foremost, all I have been wishing is that I want a guy who’ll serenade me, like singing a song for me even though his voice stinks or the guitar is broken, all I want is an effort. Furthermore, I want someone who’s proud that he likes and loves me even though I’m not perfect in their eyes or I’m not that beautiful just like the models you’ve been watching and seeing from tv shows, movies, magazines, billboards, and wherever. 

This is the result of watching not-so-romantic movies and reading books with awesome and loving fictional characters. Pardon myself from this blog but, this is what I’ve been dreaming since I knew what’s love all about.